When you have all this plans and within a second you have to burn it all. Reality hit you. It hit even harder when it all happens not because you 'fail' to do it, but the situation makes you not to do it at the very first place while you really want it and you can’t do anything about it. And what screws me up most is the picture in my head of how it is supposed to be.
How it is supposed to be.
“Things didn’t go the way you planned, but that doesn’t mean you lose hope. Stay positive and stay focused”
I tried. But it’s just...it's not that easy to stay positive all the time, to let things go, especially when you thought you still had a chance; but you’re not. Always trying not to shed a tear by always smiling, laughing, etc; but you know it doesn’t work everytime. Stay strong is a must, but trying to look so strong in front of anyone is hard when you still have the struggle.
Sorry for being this fragile. I’ve tried to just keep it in mind but you know everyone has this kind of time when you just…you just can’t hold it and you have no idea what to do.
Of course, I learn a thing, and it gives me a wider view. Just believing in God and myself and that it just need a little bit more to survive and then I can face it all. Always trust God's plans are always better :)
Tuesday, 6 December 2016
